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Wednesday, 05 December 2007

  • the best thing to do after a breakup is to analyze what YOU yourself did wrong.

    It helps you to become a better person and you can redefine what you did. That way, the next relationship will be healthier and you wont make the same mistakes constantly.

    I let him change who i was.

    I didnt compromise...neither of us did.

    I got angry about stuff I shouldn't have.

    I didn't notice how unhappy and depressed I was in my relationship until it was over...i would be depressed but every time he came around i felt like...false happiness...then when he'd leave i felt relieved.

    i closed myself up and looked at everything through rose colored glasses which you CANT do...with justin i focused only on the negative...shaun only on the positive...i need to find the perfect balance and focus on what is REALLY there.

    i was too clingy...because he became my life. i got too attached to him and it came to the point where i NEEDED him there otherwise id sleep the day away til i could see him.

    I let it get too serious too fast...never again.

     

    I solumnly swear, I will never make these mistakes again. I got lucky this time...the moment he was out was when I remembered who i really am.

Tuesday, 27 November 2007

  • 1. I love you but I'm not in love with you
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    Phrase used exclusively by shallow self-absorbed individuals who actually have no concept of what it means to love or be loved. Their hearts are vacant and usually associate sex not with a deeply emotional or spiritual experience but rather purely a physical and transient act involving no emotion. Such individuals are limited in both intellect and in normal socialization skills. People who use this overused cliche usually suffer from a combination of schizotypal disorder and sociopathy. A catch-all phrase when the person doing the dumping knows there is no reason for the relationship to end, other than for purely selfish reasons of wanting to pursue sexual relations with other individuals outside of the current relationship.

    I love you but I'm not in love with you

    Translation:

    I don't love you and I want to experiment with other people





    okay...so i'm single now...I myself am extremely confused...maybe someone can explain it to me cause he certainly couldnt...to explain it to me all he could say was "i love you but im not IN love with you" aka he gave me a cop-out...

    how does someone go from thursday night...looking at you like you are the world...touching you like you are...introducing you to people as the girl he is going to marry some day...then because of two stupid fights...one of which he misunderstood me...all of a sudden NOT love the person? It doesn't work like that. Saturday he wanted to be left alone...okay...then he kept calling and texting...esp when i was trying to sleep so i told him it was annoying and he flipped out...almost broke up with me sunday but then told me he still loved me and stuff and was fine...then monday i went to his house and he was fine...looking at me the same...then suddenly he told me he wasn't happy.

    and then he starts crying to me...saying he isnt over his ex! wtf? he breaks up with a girl who treated him right for 6 MONTHS because of his EX? he was crying his head off and idk it almost seemed forced? i'm so confused. then he told me i was a rebound and he never loved me. which was bullshit cause I saw it in his eyes. people can lie but eyes can't.

    i'm just so annoyed and confused.

    he then told me maybe it was cause of the fights...
    if conflict affects him that bad then he will never have a healthy relationship...and it's a fact cause our fights werent bad. idk.

    it really annoys me that he had me come over and fucked me one last time before he dumped me. he claims it was to "see if he could get it back" wtf? he KNOWS how emotional it is for me....and im emotional for a while after...you just dont do that...

    everyone is saying they think his grandma said something.

    wtf.

    i'm having trouble eating right now...i mean our relationship was great...it really was...he always said "the good times more than make up for the bad" and its hard to think that just a week ago he was so excited for me to get out of work and come over to go skating and then when his grandparents came he was RUNNING to introduce me and he looked at me so proud and then he let us go... im so disappointed...disappointe

    d that he didnt fight for us...even if he was feeling weird...he always looked me in the eyes and promised he would fight. im just so angry cause we werent anywhere near our time to be done...we were great...

Sunday, 25 November 2007

  • what am i thankful for?

    i know this is a little late...

    but ive lost my head over the past few days...

    and i want to think about this...

    i am thankful for...

    my gods first off...
    they always listen to me...
    they give me somewhere to fall on...
    i am so happy i have my religion...
    it gives me a reason to wake up every day with a smile...
    even if the day isn't one to face with a smile...

    i'm thankful for my life...
    the fact that i was given a life...
    life is really so beautiful..
    i hate seeing people who don't realize this...
    even through all the hardship...
    life really is beautiful...

    i'm thankful that shaun came into my life...
    he makes me feel so good...
    he listens to me when i'm talking nonsense...
    he makes me feel beautiful.
    he always makes me smile...
    he makes me so happy to be alive...
    and i'm thankful for every moment...every minute...he is in my life.
    i don't think there is a better person in this world than him...

    i'm thankful he is always able to forgive me...
    im thankful he can forgive the stupid girl who makes stupid mistakes.
    im thankful for the way he looks at me...
    im thankful for the way he kisses me
    and the way he always holds me close when we hug.
    im thankful for the oppurtunity to love him like he deserves...

    i'm thankful for my health...for my moms health...
    for everyone's health.

    im thankful for anyone that was ever nice to me...

    im thankful that this year i was shown nothing but true kindness...
    thankful that it was shown to me in a time when i was starting to lose myself...

    im so thankful...


Thursday, 22 November 2007